I was appointed by God to minister to women and I must admit the journey has not been easy. At that moment I did not understand the calling, what was to come and when. It has been important to learn that when God anoints you with purpose it may not make sense to you or those around you. However, what God starts He will finish no matter how much resistance you give Him. Through the process it has been difficult to believe that God chose me to impact the lives of women. God put this scripture in my heart and I've rehearsed it more times than I can count. LUKE 1:45, “Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill His promises to her". Although, I was not sure of the road I knew I had to trust God through the journey.
I questioned Him many times, I could not understand what was so special about me. My life was a mess. I was not what the church would call "Holy". “God you sure you chose the right person?", I asked. I wrestled with God, because I did not look like the church folks. I came up with any and every reason of why I was not qualified for the call. When those excuses for delaying the ministry vision would arise, God reminded me of the imperfect people He used in the bible. To name a few, David, the adulterer; Saul, the persecutor of Christians; Peter, the one who denied Him, and Rehab, the prostitute.
Finally, after kicking and screaming, I had another talk with God to confirm that He was certain I was the one. I no longer wanted to run from God, therefore, in September 2014, I surrendered to the call. Of course I reminded Him one last time about how much of a mess I was and God simply said, “It is not about who you are, it is about who I am". God purposed me for such a time as this and I am not a mistake. I may not have it all together, others may not understand, and at times I still try to figure out why. All I know is "Greater is He that is in me, than he that is in world". If God is for me, who can be against me, everyday my answer to Him is YES LORD.